Ugh... 2010's not as great as people have thought it'd be... so far this year's been full of snow and death. More people are depessed, looking back on other years just makes you think you're getting older, and everybody's family is dying.

...and now's the time thoughts of suicide kick in.

Bored.

RULES
-You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping!
-Tag five people after wards. *no way!*
-Leave a message on their page telling them they're tagged.

</ARE YOU?
1. Perfect?: Hell no
2. Tall?: Define "tall:
3. In your pajamas?: I sleep in my clothes
4. Left handed?: Nope

LAST:
1. Friend/s you saw: Micheal, Brandy (two friends at school)
2. Talked to on the phone: My Dad
3. Person to text you: I don't text
4. Was today better than yesterday?: Eh, no.

FAVORITES:
1. Number: 6
2. Color(s): Red, black, blue, gray, silver
3. Fruit: Apples, strawberrys and cherries
4. Place: Ummm...

EIGHT EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now?: No
2. Are you happy?: No
3. Are you sad?: Not really, just sick
4. Are you bored?: Very
5. Are you nervous?: No
6. Are you tired? Yes

CURRENTLY:</b>
1. Eating?: Nothin'
2. Drinking?: Dr. Pepper
3. I'm about to: Talk to a friend, then mabye search for more bases
4. Listening to?: "Falling Away from Me" by KoRn
5. Plans for today?: Fuck around for a bit, eat, and go to sleep x3

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?:
Tried to go back to sleep

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?:
My sinuses *sneezes*

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
Alice in Wonderland

Q: Where is the last place you went?:
The Agriculture room in my school

Q. Do you smile a lot?
Not at all

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
Wishing upon a star tells Satan where you are

Q: Are you a friendly person?
Fuck you! (that's a no)

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
In a bed

Q: When was the last time you cried?
This morning because of all the shit going on in my life

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
"Fuck, I'm out of soda."

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great
0.000000002

Q: What do you hear right now?
The fan and the heater (I'm an idiot xD )

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
My back (I always have to hunch over in my chair)

Q: What's your favorite month?
June, dat's my birfday

Q: What did you do last night?
Fucked around for a bit, ate, then went to sleep XDD I'm in a rut!

001. Real name? Sunshine
002. Nickname? Sunny, Bum, Freak
003. Zodiac sign? Cancer
005. Elementary? Not currently
006. Middle School? Yes
007. High School? Later
008. Hair color? Dark Brown
009. long or short? Long
010. Loud or Quiet? Depends on the situation.
011. Sweats or Jeans? Jeans
012. Phone or Camera? Camera
013. Health freak? No
014. Drink or Smoke? No
016. Eat or Drink? Yes
017. Piercings? I want to, but I don't have any yet
018. Tattoos? Not currently, but once I'm older

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane? Yes
020. Been in a car accident? Came close once
021. Been in a fist fight? Yes

FIRSTS:
022. First piercing? Ears
023. First best friend? Hali
025. First award? ...
026. First crush? Back when I was in Kindergarten
028. First big vacation? ...

LASTS:
029. Last person you talked to? My Dad
030. Last person you texted? I don't text
031. Last person you watched a movie with? I don't watch movies with other people.
032. Last food you ate? Fried Chicken
033. Last movie you watched? Repo! The Genetic Opera
034. Last song you listened ? "Bless the Child" by Nightwish
035. Last thing you bought? Bag o' cookies
036. Last person you hugged? ...

FAVES:
037. Food? Food food
038. Drinks? Sodas
039. Clothing? Jeans, a striped shirt, and a sweatshirt
040. Book? Anything by Stephen King
041. Music? Victorian, Metal, Rock, Techno
042. Flower? Rose?
043. Colors? Black, gray, white, red, silver
044. Movies? Repo! The Genetic Opera, The Devil's Rejects, and others...
045. Shoes? Tennis shoes
046. Subjects? Ehh... Agriculture I guess

IN THE PAST YEAR I ... :
047. [ ] kissed in the snow
048. [x] celebrated Halloween
049. [ ] had your heart broken
050. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [ ] came out of the closet
053. [ ] gotten pregnant
054. [ ] had an abortion
055. [x] done something you've regretted
056. [ ] broke a promise
057. [x] hid a secret
058. [x] pretended to be happy
059. [ ] met someone who changed your life
060. [x] pretended to be sick
061. [ ] left the country
062. [ ] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it syrup on meats and french fries
063. [ ] cried over the silliest thing
064. [ ] ran a mile
065. [ ] went to the beach with your best friend
066. [ ] stayed single the whole year

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating? I ate about half an hour ago
068. Drinking? Root Beer
069. I'm about to? Type some more
070. Listening to? Music
071. Plans for today/tomorrow? Saturday School

072. Waiting for ?

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? Yes

074. Want to get married? Mabye

075. Careers in mind? Director, Writer, Author, Video Game Desinger

WHICH IS BETTER ON A Guy?
076. Lips or eyes? That ain't what I'm looking at *shot hard*

077. Shorter or taller? Taller (so he'd have to be like 6 foot x3

078. Romantic or spontaneous?

079. Nice stomach or nice arms? Who cares
080. Sensitive or loud? Both?

081. Hookup or relationship? Relationship.

082. Troublemaker or hesitant? Eh..
083. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes
084. Ran away from home? Thought about it, couldn't do it

085. Held a gun/knife for self defense? No

086. Killed somebody? Not yet

087. Broken someone's heart? No
088. Been arrested? No
089. Cried when someone died? Yush

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself? Not really

091. Miracles? Not really
092. Love at first sight? Not really
093. Heaven? Sure
094. Santa Claus? *is still clinging to the hope that there might be one*
095. Sex on the first date? Uh uh.

096. Kiss on the first date? Sure

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? I don't like people. *glares*
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Sure.

Yeah, alot of shit's been going on in my life, and I'm starting to become depressed. If you don't want to hear my whining about dead people, then don't read.

My Mom's been in Florida for a month, and she might stay for another couple months, a couple weeks, or just one week. She's been changing her answer every time I ask, and she's spent 2,000$ in one month! Our rent bills don't cost that much! She went down there because my Aunt had cancer and she became suicidal. But my Mom's yet to visit her! >:U And also, if she stays down there too long, my dad (though he's technically just a legal gaurdian, he's been raising me since I was a baby) can legally adopt me so she won't have custody.

My great-grandmother passed away last Christmas. How it happened, well... one month she broke her hip, another month she broke her neck, another month she broke her other hip, and she just got sicker and sicker... she had to be supported by her daughter, my grandmother, until one day she just passed away in her sleep...

My grandmother (the one mentioned above) has Kemo (I don't know how to spell it), I think it's a type of cancer, I'm not sure. She's been doing better though, she's walking around, doing some things for herself like making some food or feeding the dog, and her test resaults are pretty good. Also, there's a cashier at a nearby gas station (me and my dad are friends with her) who had Kemo too. All the doctors said she was going to die, but she came out of it okay. So there's hope for my grandmom.

My grades are slipping. My Dad's been pretty pissed about that. But, I have an exuse. You see, I'm in the honors classes, meaning I (along with other students) get harder work and have to do more projects. So far, the biggest concern is math. I was never good at it before I was in honors, why are they making it harder for me!? I've begged my teacher and my dad to let me out, but they won't. I showed my dad some of the work I had to do, and he couldn't figure it out. So hopefully he'll start taking simpathy on me. Also, alot of times I'll have to go to the elementary school for an extra gifted class, and whenever I leave I go straight to my dad's car. He'll ask "Why are you so tired?" "Because I had to walk from the elementary school, and it's on the other side." "Why'd you have to do that?" "Honors." So hopefully he'll start taking simpathy on me.

Well that's it. I'm still depressed!

UPDATE: My Mom wants to stay down in Florida. Because she's "sick." Ugh, my life is aggrivating.

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Yeah, been pretty bored (despite the fact that I have a million things to do), so yeah, QUIZ TYME! C|

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes? Wal-Mart (closest place and it's in the next town xD )
Favorite designer? Um... Emilie Autumn? x3
What is your most comfortable outfit? Anything not too tight or with bright colors.
What do you usually wear? Jeans, any kind of t-shirt or blouse (as long as its dark, colors hurt my eyes), and a dark jacket.

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What kind of shampoo do you use? I don't know, but it smells like strawberrys.
What are you listening to right now? "Alien She" by Bikini Kill
Who is the last person that called you? ... I don't talk on the phone. x3
How many buddies are online right now? Um... *counts* About 12 C:

-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

Foods: Pizza, doununts, ice cream, chicken, chocolate, fries... yeah, I don't eat anything healthy. AND I AM PROUD TO BE OVERWEIGHT!
Girls names: Charlotte, Claudia, Robin, Mercedes, Linnie, Isabell, Emilie (but only if it's spelled like that), Yvette (no, not Ivette, Yvette, with a Y )
Boys names: Stephen, Alexander, Claude
Subjects in school: Science (I'm failing Math x3 )

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

Given anyone a bath? Dogs count?
Smoked? No
Bungee jumped? Uh uh.
Made yourself throw up? Tried it, couldn't do it.
Skinny dipped? No, I don't even like bathing suits!
Ever been in love? Kinda sorta
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? Not MAKE myself cry, but it has worked a couple times.
Cried when someone died? Sure, yeah.
Lied: Ja.
Fallen for your best friend?: Sure
Rejected someone? No, I can't bring myself to do it. And if I do, I try to be polite.
Used someone? Nope
Done something you regret?: Alot of times.

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Clothes? Dark and covering (I don't like showing skin)
Music: Rock, metal, techno, victorian, alternative, and whatever genre Within Temptation and Nightwish fall under x3
Smell: Strawberrys, cherries, gasoline (don't deny it!), the scent of my girlfriend
Desktop picture: A collab I did with *puppycat23 that we never uploaded xD
Cd in player: I don't own a Cd player
DVD in player: A Simpsons DVD

----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •----------------------

You touched: I don't touch people, I don't even like to look at them.
Hugged: My Dad
You IMed: *ThunderWolfang
You yelled at: My girlfriend (it was a play-yell, we were fighting over a hammer)
You kissed: My Dad

---------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

Understanding: Yes
Open-minded: Very
Arrogant: A bit
Insecure: Very
Random: Yes
Hungry: Not at the moment
Smart: At certain subjects
Moody: Sometimes
Organized: No
Healthy: Not really, I'm kind of big for my age
Shy: Very
Difficult: Not really
Bored easily: Very
Obsessed: Very
Angry: No
Sad: No
Happy: Yes
Hyper: No, pretty mellow
Trusting: Yes

---------• × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × •--------

Kill?: The majority of students and teachers in my class
Slap?: My Mum
Talk to offline: Everyone I love you all! (my friends on DA)

------------------• × • R A N D O M • × •---------------------

In the morning I: Wake up, lay there in silence for an hour, start to move around, head to my computer, and usually the day just goes on from there.
I love: My friends (all of you ), my girlfriend, my Dad, my biological Dad (I only met him once), music, movies, crack pairings/children, ocs, my friends ocs, nostalgia, video games, anything mint-flavored
Where do you live?: Northern Georgia, in the asscrack of the mountains xD

---------------• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • × ---------------

Coke or Pepsi: They taste the same to me.
Flowers or candy: Both
Tall or short: Tall

---------------• × • W H O • × • ---------------

Makes you laugh the most: Stupid people xD And my friends that actually try to be funny
Makes you smile: My loved ones. Friends or family

--------------• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •-----------------

Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Once or twice
Wish you were a member of the opposite gender?: YES!! ALL THE DAMN TIME!!
Wish you were younger: Yes, my childhood is almost over and I'm acting mature!!
Cry because someone said something to you?: Yes.

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Of times I have had my heart broken: Rarely, possibley once
Of hearts I have broken: Don't know.
Of guys I've kissed: *counts* About 2
Of girls I've kissed: *counts* About 2
Of CD's I own: I don't buy Cds anymore, I download all my crap c:
Of scars on my body: One on my chin from when I slipped in the mud, one on my arm where one of my friends stabbed me with a fork, one on my hand where my girlfriend attacked me because I touched her notebook, and one bellow my lower lip from something, don't remember what. So, about 4 in total